I’ve learned a lot since arriving at YWAM, but one of the values that sticks out to me the most is how I learned the meaning of worship. Before coming to YWAM I usually associated worship with crying and getting a spiritual high. If I knew that there would be a worship service, or a youth retreat, I’d slack off on my personal devotions, maybe pray a little here and there and just say “well, I’ll be getting filled up soon, so I’ll just leave it for then.” actually, those were the exact words I said to myself before coming to YWAM.
I didn’t realize that worship wasn’t just all about getting but also about giving. It wasn’t about me showing up to a place wanting God to give me a nice feeling, but for me to be filled up already so that I can give back to God, so I can give him a gift of my worship.
Yeah it’s okay for me to want God to reveal personal meanings to me but I realized that every time I went into worship I just went expecting God to give me stuff or to get a spiritual high- I was being selfish.
When I noticed this it really convicted me, God gives me so much, the least I can do is worship him without wanting more out of him.
Once I realized this habit, every time I’d go into worship I would really concentrate on just worshiping God without wanting to get something back… it was hard and it is still something I’m working on.
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