Lesson Learned

You know when you have to sneeze but it’s not quite there yet? You try focusing on it, maybe wiggle your nose like a rabbit, or breathe in and out quickly hoping the little nose hairs will tickle the inside enough to set off the sneeze, but it’s still not there? Well, many a time this has happened to me so one day, being totally frustrated with loosing yet another sneeze (random fact, I really enjoy sneezing, so loosing one is a sad moment) and having my eyes tear up and my face contort into a hideous look, I decided the ol’ look-into-the-light method. It felt like I burnt my retinas. Never again.

Heart of Worship pt.2

There’s so many aspects to worship I never really thought of, like the feeling part. I always thought that if I don’t feel it, I don’t have to do it, but now I know worship isn’t about my feelings. I can feel tired, or sad or just not in the mood but I need to lay that all aside and just worship God for who he is. And it’s not bad to tell him how I’m feeling, he knows it already so why hid from it? I can just lift it up to God, deal with it and worship him openly.
Another part I’m learning is to worship God in all aspects of my life, God’s always the same. My situations may change and my feelings may change but in all of this I’ve learned I need to worship God in those situations. And it’s hard, because I act moody, and I want what I want but I just have to worship God with my heart, not my feelings.
If God never gave anything to me again, he wouldn’t answer me, bless me, heal me -nothing, would I still want to worship him? That really got me thinking, and it was hard question to answer until I realized that worshiping Him wasn’t about getting! I’m still learning a lot about worship and practicing what I already have learned, it’s hard sometimes but in the end, it’s worth it. To me, God’s worth it.

Heart of Worship pt.1

I’ve learned a lot since arriving at YWAM, but one of the values that sticks out to me the most is how I learned the meaning of worship. Before coming to YWAM I usually associated worship with crying and getting a spiritual high. If I knew that there would be a worship service, or a youth retreat, I’d slack off on my personal devotions, maybe pray a little here and there and just say “well, I’ll be getting filled up soon, so I’ll just leave it for then.” actually, those were the exact words I said to myself before coming to YWAM.
I didn’t realize that worship wasn’t just all about getting but also about giving. It wasn’t about me showing up to a place wanting God to give me a nice feeling, but for me to be filled up already so that I can give back to God, so I can give him a gift of my worship.
Yeah it’s okay for me to want God to reveal personal meanings to me but I realized that every time I went into worship I just went expecting God to give me stuff or to get a spiritual high- I was being selfish.
When I noticed this it really convicted me, God gives me so much, the least I can do is worship him without wanting more out of him.
Once I realized this habit, every time I’d go into worship I would really concentrate on just worshiping God without wanting to get something back… it was hard and it is still something I’m working on.

State Your Name and Purpose

I’m Karly, and I’m new to the whole blog phenomenon thingy so we’ll see if I A, get addicted, or B, stop caring after about a week. Maybe there’ll be a happy medium, only time will tell I’m guessing.
My purpose is to write down new revelations, and random stories, so that not only I, but people of the computer world can enjoy as well. You can expect posts from what God has shown me through out my YWAM journey, random stories from my day to day life, and, of course, my amazing best friend/boyfriend Jackson.
Enjoy!